Feelings on the Edge: A Special Someone for a Short While

How long should you be connected to a person for him/her to become the one, who when leaves, makes you feel sad? This is a relative thing: the answers differ with each individual for sure. If you ask me, a single day can make me develop such feelings for a person. When you feel the connection from inside, a time period is but just a number.

You can be friends with someone since your childhood and yet the presence or absence of that person might not differ much to your life. But someone whom you have in your life for a little while might just mean much valuable to you. That is why, I now realize, it is said that the length of time does not matter, but its depth does.

So, how do you know somebody you meet or have is that someone? The bad part is, most of the times, you get to realize it only after the person is gone from your life. It is such a sad thing, I know. We all know.

It is a rare case that we know that ‘someone’ while the person is still in our life. But then, there is always an uncertainty – you never know when the diversion is going to hit your together-travelled road. The road of life has uncountable branches and the turns; you never know when you and the person walking beside you would divert from each other.

Knowing all this, what you got to do is cherish the moments you have together with, love the time as much as you get and try to make the memories  pleasant ones, for both.

But, we might also fail to do so. We would try and try and try, but still fail. I have tried. I have failed. To the ones who have succeeded, you are awesome, you really are.

It is not always about you, you have to think from the others’ perspective too. Sometimes, what we think is enough for us might mean nothing to the other person; what we consider is valuable enough might mean just another random stuff to the other person. This is when the conflict arises.

Even when you try to make things as simpler as you can, complications come on the way anyhow. You know both the parties are right in their own ways and both have good intentions (apparently), but still, things do not work out sometimes. Why? Where does that compatibility you shared happily before, go? You know, it feels so bad.

Won’t you try? Duh, you do. You try all you could, you might even go out of your way if it means much important to you. The sad thing is, not all those attempts you are making will be enough. You would say so many things but when your actions fail to prove it, things go the wrong way. There is a high chance that you, amidst all this and that between head and heart would miss out the single thing that could be the one to save you from the troubles. Or, you make yourself guilty thinking so!

The saying might go as it is never too late but in reality, late is late! And it sucks.

How long will you hold? Eventually, you have to let go. For you must make the person you love feel free. For you must be able to release, as you are to hold. More importantly, for yourself. You know, we all are selfish to some extent. I must be saying this so that at least I could feel a little good after all. It’s fine!

You admit the mistakes you have done. You try to correct them. When your trials fail, you try more. More failures and you learn a lesson. It’s good if things go as per your wishes, and if not, well, you have learnt a lesson now.

All these ups and downs of emotions could occur in a short interval, say less than a month! How would it feel? Only those would know who have gone through similar circumstances in their lives. No matter if it’s a single day or a week or a month or a year, when it has struck deep into the heart, you are likely to get in an emotional turmoil. You are happy that you got some memories with the person, even if it is just for a while. But then, when you cannot preserve or cherish enough that special someone, it hurts and it feels worse. It is sad when you feel you could not make the other person feel the same way as he/she made you.

How would it feel like when you have been on both sides? Breaker and broken? You realize karma!

What if all this is called one bullshit? Not right! The feelings that truly come from your heart are never shit. Remember!

Most importantly, you remain positive, you should. Life still has much more to offer you. You still have lots to explore. You had an experience, learn from it. It’s the one close to your heart, embrace it as it is. Have empathy, be kind and do not stop loving. 

You wear a smile on a face.

P.S. I do not hold the authority to any of the images used in this post. I must thank the internet!