One Sleepless Night I Just Got Over

5 a.m. Not that I just woke up early in the morning, I haven't slept the whole night. My sleep was lost somewhere last night, its already a new morning, new day.... I had shut down my laptop at 10 pm, stopped using cellphone at 11 pm, could not sleep a bit and am hooked on laptop again since 2 am! My right eye is paining. It was bound to happen.

A sleepless night like this reminded me of my college days when only thing I have to worry about is my study and only time I stayed awake all night is either during exams or the time I had tons of assignments. However, during exams I literally used to sit down for studying but always ended up sleeping in a chair only to find a single page turned over by the time I woke up in the morning. That was a whole different scenario anyway.

As I got inside my blanket closing my eyes to get sleep, random thoughts started playing inside my head. I was thinking about what I'd do and what sort of life I'd be living in coming days. Career-tension has hit me hard for last two months. Plus, being a jobless despite having relatively good academic qualification is pretty frustrating. Life has been more complex, I have to think so many things at a time. 

Last night, I found it quite different as I found my ideas really do-able and having a high probability of getting success. But again, this happens almost every time I think of doing something, High Hopes! But yesterday, random ideas got quite connected to one another giving my hopes a new level. Nevertheless, doubts and negativity comes hand in hand with the ideas. I had too many thoughts, as always, and then started a series of random feelings and processing of dream-castle!! Oh hell, I always end up being over-ambitious; but one can dream big, eh! But, something is making me feel more determined this time.

Hell, my right eye! It was paining real bad, thanks to my addiction to cellphone and Internet! It is still in pain but a degree of pain quite lowered now after I drank a cup of coffee as I was feeling real hungry a half an hour ago! Is there a connection between eye-pain and a coffee? What am I up to boss? Sigh.

Good morning.

25 January, 2015

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